This Year's Ramadhan - A Little Bit Different

Compared to previous Ramadhan I had went to, in my opinion, this year's Ramadhan is a little bit different (or to be accurate, it's really different from the previous Ramadhan). Many factors affecting it.

1. Transferring to Kuching
This is the one of the factors that makes my Ramadhan for this year different. You see, already seven years and three months I have been in Sarikei. Of courselah, if you transferred to a new place after live for a long time there, you will face problems suiting yourself to your new environment.

And you should know, Kuching is very very different from Sarikei. Please note that.

2. Problems
As I transferred to here, I also face problems which are different from the ones I had faced in Sarikei. Busy with other things: holding post from being 4A Assistant Monitor to the Monitor, organising camp (I only involved in Qiyamullail Camp), schoolworks, exam, tests, etc.

I never faced such problems once before.

3. Lack of Supports
You may say that I'm emo. I admit that. After all, I'm a newcomer. Refer here, here, and here.

International Day of Quds

"For many years, I have been notifying the Muslims of the danger posed by the usurper Israel which today has intensified its savage attacks against the Palestinian brothers and sisters, and which, in the south of Lebanon in particular, is continually bombing Palestinian homes in the hope of crushing the Palestinian struggle. I ask all the Muslims of the world and the Muslim governments to join together to sever the hand of this usurper and its supporters. I call on all the Muslims of the world to select as al-Quds Day (later known as International Day of Quds) the last Friday in the holy month of Ramadan - which is itself a determining period and can also be the determiner of the Palestinian people’s fate - and through a ceremony demonstrating the solidarity of Muslims world-wide, announce their support for the legitimate rights of the Muslim people. I ask God Almighty for the victory of the Muslims over the infidels."

Ayatollah Khomeini's message announcing Al-Quds Day, August 7th 1979
P/S: Please note that the infidel Ayatollah Khomeini referred is the kafir harbi (infidels who are declaring war against Islam)

638 CE - 'Umar bin al-Khattab succeeded conquering the holy land of Jerusalem after 'Umar bin al-Khattab and St. Sophronius of Jerusalem signed 'Uhdah 'Umarriyyah (عهدة عمرية The Covenant of 'Umar). The content of the covenant are:

In the name of Allah, the Most Merciful, the Beneficent.

This is what the slave of Allah, Umar b. Al-Khattab, the Amir of the believers, has offered the people of Illyaa’ of security granting them Amaan (protection) for their selves, their money, their churches, their children, their lowly and their innocent, and the remainder of their people.

Their churches are not to be taken, nor are they to be destroyed, nor are they to be degraded or belittled, neither are their crosses or their money, and they are not to be forced to change their religion, nor is any one of them to be harmed.

No Jews are to live with them in Illyaa’ and it is required of the people of Illyaa’ to pay the Jizyah, like the people of the cities. It is also required of them to remove the Romans from the land; and whoever amongst the people of Illyaa’ that wishes to depart with their money together with the Romans, leaving their trading goods and children behind, then they selves, their trading goods and their children are secure until they reach their destination.

Upon what is in this book is the word of Allah, the covenant of His Messenger, of the Khulafaa’ and of the believers if they (the people of Illyaa’) gave what was required of them of Jizyah.

The witnesses upon this were Khalid ibn Al-Walid, 'Amr ibn al-'As, Abdul Rahman bin Auf and Muawiyah ibn Abi Sufyan. Written and passed on the 15th year (after Hijrah)

July 1187 - Salahuddin Al-Ayyubi with his troops conquered Jerusalem once again, freed the Palestinians from the cruelty of the Crusaders. Battle of Hattin promised the victory to Salahuddin Al-Ayyubi and his troops.


1948 - After the 1948 Palestine War, the illegal land of Israel was formed. 2/3 of the Muslim Palestinians were dissipated away from Palestine. This event was known as 1948 Palestinian Exodus (الهجرة الفلسطينية Al-Hijrah Al-Filastiniyyah), also known as the Nakba (النكبة The Disaster).


7th August 1979 - Ayatollah Ruhullah Musavi Khomeini, the 1st Supreme Leader of Iran, announcing the last Friday of Ramadhan as the Al-Quds Day, later known as the International Day of Quds.

Unfortunately, most of the Muslim community does not know these kind of infos, and they kept drowning in the world of hedonism. While the Muslim Palestinians strunggling to get the indepence, the other Muslims keet silent. Only small percentage of them supporting the Muslim Palestinians with various means.

The history of the (Jewish) people is written in black ink, and has included a series of murders of the prophets, the Mujaheedin, and righteous people. This, although the book descended upon Moses is all mercy. Allah has said: "And is preceded by the Book of Moses which was a guide and a mercy for people before him."

So where is this mercy in all this barbarity, devoid of moral and human values? But maybe it is the beginning of their end.

Oh Brothers in the land of missions and the cradle of valor, Oh Sons of brave Mujaheedin, Oh descendents of conquering heroes, you have revived the hopes of this nation through your blessed Jihad. By Allah, be patient until, with Allah's help, one of two good things will be awarded you: either victory or martyrdom. Our hearts are with you; our prayers are dedicated to you. The Islamic nation will not spare money or effort in support of your cause, which is the supreme Muslim cause, until the promise made by Allah, who never breaks a promise, is fulfilled.

Sheikh Dr. Abdul Rahman As-Sudais

Kuiz Perdana - Pustaka Negeri - Reflection

"O the people of Kufa! You let the Jews, Christians, dogs and pigs drink the water from the Euphrates River, but all of you let the family of the Messenger of God (s.a.w.) in thirst. May God make you feel thirsty during the Day of Resurrection!"

Al-Hurr al-Riyahi's last words during the Battle of Karbala

Prime Quiz State Level 2008
Four students were selected from St. Joseph to represent the school in Kuiz Perdana State Level 2008. The selected students are Abdul Hakim Lukhman (4A), Allistair Adam (4A), Christ Andra (4A) and Randy Song (4D). They were selected two days before the quiz. Mdm. Nora were our teacher-in-charge to bring us to SK Petra Jaya.

Very nostalgic. I went to this school twice. My first time was when me, Kelvin Jong, Roland Teo and Stanley Teng represented the school in the Consumerisme Quiz District Level 2008. (refer to here and here for more details).

The quiz was started at 10.00 am and ended at 11.00 am. The format was the same - sitting in a room with pencils, answering the questions provided in a question book. Praise to God, there was no subjective questions.

I managed to answer all the question in 20 minutes (with most of the question I answered blindly, in other words, tembak). I spent 30 minutes to sleep, and the remaining of the time to sitting there, checking my answers, altough I know it's no use to check my crappy answers.

Honestly, I felt no worry. For me, there's nothing for me to be worried, since I had the same experience. However, Allistair, Christ Andra and Randy felt worried. For Adam and Christ, this is the first time he participate such contest. For Randy, he have not made any preparation for today's quiz.

After the quiz, we felt very happy. We (and the other contestants) were allowed to bring the question book. And the teachers-in-charge for every team also been given each one of them the same question book.

Because we felt very lazy to go back top school, we decided to go to other place. Mdm. Nora brought us to Pustaka Negeri (State Library). After all, the 4A was sitting for diagnostic test. So, three of us took this opportunity to escape from the test. No offence for it.

At State Library
When we arrived at the State Library, we felt very excited. Well, this is (maybe) our first time to State Library. The library was so huge, the area was very wide, and got bookstore, surau, and also a big lake in front of the library.

Me: Adam, kita molah perjumpaan untuk Swimming Club kat tasik tok, mauk?
Adam: (laugh)

Before entering the library, Mdm Nora took the pictures of four of us at the pavement towarding the entrance.

In there, I took the opportunity to have a look at all the books. I'm really really really look sakai. There's a lot of books - more than the books at Sarikei Public Library. I'm so fascinated with the large number of books of hadth collection. Sahih Bukhari, Sahih Muslim, Sunan Abu Daud, al-Arba'un an-Nawawiyyah, Riyadhus-Salihin, etc - you name it.

However, we only have one hour time to be at there.

We left the library at 12.38 pm.

I Feel ...
Because of the hot weather, I felt so sleepy until I felt want to continued my sleep. I tried to sleep but then failed. There, I made reflection of myself.

Do I still have to continue in be in my state of loneliness? Do I have someone at my side to be with me in all kind of situation?

I know, this is very normal. But I cannot be in this state continuously, or else it may drive me crazy, and then I have to be locked in the room for mad people.

I am really really really in desperate situation. I really in critical situation ...


P/S: the pictures are just for decoration only. Thanks a bunch to OneManga.

Comparison of Me and Kenji Harima

School Rumble (スクールランブル, Sukūru Ramburu) is a manga serialized in the Weekly Shōnen Magazine, created by Jin Kobayashi. The final chapter was released on July 23, 2008.

extract from Wikipedia

One of mangas I always read is School Rumble. Unlike other weird people, I did not put my view at only one aspect. I tried to widen my view of ascpects, for my detective-ficiton-writing reference.

One thing I found out that, the protagonist of the manga, i.e Kenji Harima (as shown in the picture) and me share some similarities between us. (I'm not being perasan).

Harima is most definitely a "bad boy" at heart and is too stupid to go beyond the honorifics and complexities of love which he is quite frequently faced with.

Me too, probably.

He often struggles to confess to Tenma, though he knows she has absolutely no feelings for him and may even dislike him.

Yap. I also facing the same problems.

Harima has a habit of trying to escape his problems by avoiding them, which has resulted in him briefly following various pursuits and skipping school for periods of time.

I also did the same thing, but did not until skipping school. I always avoid my problems.

... it is implied that Harima is largely independent.

He is independent at other things. I independent in the way of thinking.

He also has a fear of eating shrimps and prawns...

I dislike shrimps and prawns.

So what do you think? Am I being perasan?

I Do Not Take It Seriously

"The people of unbelief and oppression, even though they claim they are people of reform and supporters of freedom, they are in fact people of destruction and ruin, who act on behalf of their own private interests and for their despicable private pleasures."

Sheikh Sa'ud bin Ibrahim ash-Shuraim, Imam and Khatib in Sacred Mosque, Makkah

Result for the Second Test (September) 2008
Early of this month, the whole Josephians (except for the third, fifth and upper formers, as they were sitting for trial exam) were sitting for our second test for this year. And today, my class teacher gave everyone our result paper. My result is as shown below:


My result shown biggest, drastic degradation. But, well, it's just a test, after all. If it's SPM, then I feel disappointed.

This thing realized me about something. I cannot be relaxed anymore. It's the time to show my real efforts and achievement.

Suspection - Restu Collage
Now, I felt I'm not in the situation of romance, it's the situation of adventure and full of suspicious instead.

Kelvin Jong told me that 'she' suspected me. She wondered why I'm always everywhere.

o.O

I need to clean that suspicious deduction.

O.o

Ok. Forgot about it first.

Finally I found the real website of Yayasan Restu, the only non-government organization that try to develop the art of Arabic caligraphy in Malaysia. The link is here.

To my surprise, there's a college there, named Kolej Restu. The courses there are also realy great, especially for young, amateur Arabic calligraphy learner just like me. Now, I decided to go to that collage before I continued to study in Sunnah Studies. The course I planned to choose is Diploma in Mushaf Arts. The subjects are including:

1. Nasakh Calligraphy
2. Thuluth Calligraphy
3. Kufi Calligraphy
4. Reqa’ah Calligraphy
5. Diwani Calligraphy
6. Farisi / Ta’liq Calligraphy
7. Western Calligraphy
8. History of Art & Design
9. History of Islamic Art
10. History of Mushaf Art
11. Visual Communication
12. Introduction to al-Qur’an & ‘Uthmani Codex
13. Theory on Mushaf Publishing
14. Copying of Mushaf I
15. Copying of Mushaf II
16. Copying of Mushaf III
17. Islamic Studies
18. Malaysia Studies
19. Foundation of Art & Design
20. Foundation of Islamic Design
21. Foundation of Qur’anic Illumination
22. Introduction to Islamic Art
23. English Language
24. Basic Arabic Language
25. Mushaf Art Project
26. Calligraphy Project
27. Painting
28. Computer Graphics I
29. Computer Graphics II
30. Industrial Training
31. Foundation of Entrepreneurship
32. Jawi writing
33. Creative Thinking

Roland - What Happen?
Today, Mr. WHH taught us about Hak Istimewa Orang Melayu dan Bumiputera Sabah dan Sarawak under the subtopic of Ekonomi.

I really did not have any idea what happened to Roland today. He seemed a little bit weird than usual.

While Mr. WHH lecturing...

Mr. WHH: When Chinese got money, what did they buy first?
Roland: SEX!!!
Mr. WHH: (holding the microphone holder and want to throw that thing to Roland)
Me: O_O

The situation became worse when Roland said:

"Non-aggressive p****!!!"

Roland, what happen to you???

Weird Fever - Misunderstandings - What?

In the name of Allah, The Most Gracious, the Most Merciful. In the name of Allah, by Allah, Muhammad is the Messenger of Allah. "We said, "O Fire! Be you cool, and (a means of) safety for Abraham!" Then they sought a stratagem against him: but We made them the ones that lost most!" [Surah al-Anbiya', 21 : Verses 69 - 70] O God, the Lord of Jibril, Mikail, and Izrail. Please cure me with Your Might, Your Power and Your Strangth.

(please refer to At-Tibb an-Nabawi compiled by az-Zahabi)

Weird Fever (I think)...?
Since last Sunday, my throat became so painful, day by day. This suffer became worse when I felt my body was hotter than usual. As the result, I could not sleep well last night. I already drank plain water during sahur, but my throat still felt pain.

This fever very distracting me. To get rid of that, I walked here and there around the school compound while thinking the cause of my weird fever. And I deduced that all of that due to smell ammonia gas yesterday and also walking in the rain after school.

Misunderstanding
I did not expect that the action I walking around the school will lead to a misunderstanding of a person. I just knew about it after Kelvin Jong told me. He told me that someone is suspecting me stalking 'that girl'.

What the heck?!

I'm in bad condition, and I was accused stalking 'that girl'.

Sudah jatuh ditimpa tangga. That's the suitable proverbs for me.

I just walking to cool down my body temperature. Wallahi, wabillahi, watallahi, in the name of God the Lord of Creation, I have no other intention.

Really kah?
While waiting for our English teacher to come...

Daryl: Lukhman, you know, while I go for spot check, I saw your picture in a book in *****'s ('the girl') bag.
Me: (Laugh) So what? Do you think I'm gonna believe it?
Daryl: Really...
Me: I won't believe any news that come to me, unless you bring to me the evidence. That's my policy.

At first, I don't think that 'she' will keep my picture, as I didn't give my pictures to anybody. But then, I think, do really she did it, as Daryl said?

I'm not being perasan. Please note that.

O God, please guide me to the truth. Make me Your obidient servant. Verily You are the Most Powerful, the Most Gracious, and the Most Mercifu;. There is no other God than You.

Jihad Against My Own Desire

On 17th Ramadhan (17th March) in the year of 2 Hegira (624 CE), the Battle of Badar broke out. On 19th Ramadhan 41 Hegira, Saidina 'Ali bin Abu Talib bin 'Abdul al-Mutallib al-Quraishi was assassinated by 'Abdul Rahman bin Muljam while praying for Subuh prayer and died two days later (21st Ramadhan).

Chemistry Experiments
Chemistry is another boring things when it comes about theory, but become fun when it comes to experiment. Today, we conducted an experiment concerning investigating the chemical properties of acidic. We need to do three sub-experiments: reaction between acid with base, metal and metal carbonate.

Then, the teacher demonstrated a demo how to make ammonia, NH₃. The entire class became so excited when the teacher gave everyone a smell of ammonia. I nearly choked due to ammonia's pungent smell, just like chlorine.

Teasing by Unknown People... (Or Maybe Just My Feeling)
The recess time was another busy time for me. From Physics lab to the class, then to the Surau, then to the library, then to surau again - wah... so tired!! I nearly wasted majority of my energy I conserved this morning.

I do not know what's the ral things happened, but I seemed to be teased by some unknown people (Form 6 boys) on the way to the library. They mantioned something about me and 'the girl'. (What the heck..?!)

Or it just my feeling. You knowlah, I need to go here and there, so maybe it's just my imagination.

Jihad Against My Own Desire
I would like to quote once more the quotation I got when watching a video:

"Lagi besar kita mengaji (mencari ilmu), lagi kuat dugaan mendatang. Lagi banyak kita mencari ilmu, lagi kuat godaan mendatang." - Ustaz Akhil Hayy, video Remaja Jom Ke Surau

So many things happened in this blessed month. From one to another. And also so many problems I faced this month. Sometimes, I just felt like to give up. (You know what I mean, right?)

But, when remembering the Islamic historical events occured in this blessed month, I felt I full of spirit. (Refer to the Introduction of this entry) Now, I don't care if I had to risk my own life, just to fight against my own desire. For me, it's a jihad, and if I die, God will give me martyrdom (so I can go straight to Paradise with the other syuhada' faster than others).

I felt I'm full of spirit more when I received a personal message from a friend of mine. It ran:

Hey there,.

Apa khabar dik? Hope things are not too tough for you. For I believe God will not give you a challenge that is too hard for you to handle. He will guide you through it if He brings you to it.

In any case you need a listening ear, just message me. I'll be more than happy to be a friend.

I felt glad. At least there's a person who was at my side. All praise to God, the Lord of all creations.

Who Should We Blame On?

Since starting from yesterday was the last 10th day of Ramadhan, so today I decided to do Tahajjud (late night) prayer until the last day of Ramadhan, Insya-Allah. Therefore, I did not join the jama'ah of Tarawih prayer to perform Witir (odd) prayer. Unfortunately, the umbrella I brought was kept inside the kitchen of the surau and it was locked. So, I had to wait for the key keeper to opened the kitchen.

While waiting for the key keeper, I observed what did the kids did when all the other jama'ah prayed. And to my surprise, they did not prayed, instead they were playing. Kicking, head and ass slapping, talking - you name it. So these were they did when we were praying, I thought.

I actually was not surprise, because I know - they are still children, do know anything yet. But I did not expect that they will did bad things like that.

Before Isyak prayer, while I walking out from the kitchen of the surau, I saw a few young kids. One of them (I named him Boy A) holding a box of crackers (mercun), but he immediately when he saw me looking at him.

Me: *staring at Boy A*
Boy A: Apa? (What)
Me: Macamlah aku sik tauk kau mbak mercun. (You think I don't know, you bring a box of crackers.)
Boy B: *walking arrogantly* Tau tak apa. Tanyaklah mun sik tauk. (Ha, you know already, then don't ask. If you don't know, then ask).
Me: *talking to myself* Kurang ajar na biyak tok. (Very rude this boy)

Then I murmuring something:

"Anak siapalah budak ni..."

All of these things happen as the result of lack of moral and religion education.

Who should we blame on because of this? Kids? Parents? Or us?

My Confession - Short Description

"Do men think that they will be left alone on saying, "We believe", and that they will not be tested?" [Surah al-Ankabut, 29 : Verse 2]

As the Muslim who had been given the deep knowledge, it is impossible if I say that I did not the Verse I stated just now. Indeed, I know and believe it. Nevertheless, sometimes I could not stand with the test that God put on me. The feeling is very different from the time when I was sitting for school test.

I just transferred here. That the thing should know before you read the next sentences.

From that time, so many tests I faced, from day to day, from week to week, from month to month. And now, it has been four month I live here after 31st March. And yet, I still being alone.

I felt I'm alone now. I'm lack of morale support. No good friends or 'special friend' at my side when I'm being so sad and distress. Only the Holy Quran and Prophet Muhammad's sunnah as my 'friends' and my motivation. That's enough for me to describe how lonely am I.

And now I really think that I need a 'special friend'. I mean, err... you knowlah what I mean.

I really really need a 'special friend' which are:

• not a hypocrite person;
• can I rely on when I need her;
• be at my side and help me when I am in trouble;
• be at my side when I'm happy;
• can make me happy.

But, there was a big problem.

"I did not expect for anyone to remember me in the future, because I am such a burden and a trash to them." - my blog

"Bunga padi bunga kiambang,
Buat hiasan di kebun bunga;
Buah hati kekasih orang,
Hamba menumpang gembira sahaja."

Do you understand?

Break Fast at Ustaz's House - Short Description

First of all, I want to apologize to you all because no photos provided for this entry. Well, I'm not like the other teenagers, who have advance mobile phone with camera featured in their mobile phone. I only share the mobile phone with my mother. I also not like some of the teenagers who have digital camera.

After taking bath, I quickly wore my clothes in such a hurry. Nadzmi already waited for me outside the Complex. But, I did not forget my bag, which contained Al-Quran and As-Sunnah Studies Form 4, Kisah-kisah Motivasi untuk Menjadi Insan Cemerlang, a notebook and a pen.

Since the lift have not been repaired yet, so it took quite a long time to went downstairs from the sixth floor. During that time, I still fet being lonely and lack of supports (click here to find out more). People may see me as an oridnary person with no problems, but actually, I'm full of problems inside myself.

Back to the story. So I ran as fast as I could, since I'm wearing such a big slippers (which was actually my elder brother's). Outisde there, I entered a white yellowish Unser and went to the Masjid Jamek. Nadzmi's family want to take the bubur lambok there.

After that, we went to Alif Azni's house, which was situated at Taman Hussein (please correct me if wrong). At there, we was Alif with Syukri, who was arrived earlier than us. Then, after a few minutes, Ustaz Manaf arrived.

Before we went to his house, we went to some other places. First, we go to the petrol station. The first petrol station we went was very crowded, so we go to the second petrol station, which was situated near the way go to Matang.

Ustaz Manaf had the time to complained about people nowadays.

Ustaz: Saya tak suka dengan apa yang budak-budak buat sekarang. Parking tak betul, isi minyak tak betul - semua tak betul!
Me: Pengaruh barat, Ustaz.

Next, we went to some of students' home, which they were also invited. The students who are invited are Mohd. Qamarul, Nazmi M (Form 3), and Ahmad (probably Form 4).

At Ustaz's house, we discussed and joking around while waiting for the time to break fast. After the break fast, all of us performed Maghrib prayer, then followed by Isyak prayer, Tarawih prayer and Witir prayer before we went home.

Nadzmi and I waited for Nadzmi's dad to pick up us at Alif Azni's house. There, I was amazed with Alif's younger brother appearance. He was getting taller than the last time I net with him. However, he forgot who am I. Nevermind, I did not expect for anyone to remember me in the future, because I am such a burden and a trash to them.

Before I went to my home, Nadzmi's dad invited me to their house and having tea at there. He also kindly gave me the bubur lambok that they got this evening.

Again, My Policies are Being Challanged

"O the believers! Stand out firmly for justice, as witnesses to Allah, even as against yourselves, or your parents, or your kin, and whether it be (against) rich or poor: for Allah can best protect both. Follow not the lusts (of your hearts), lest you swerve, and if you distort (justice) or decline to do justice, verily Allah is well-acquainted with all that you do." [Surah al-Nisaa', 4 : Verse 135]

I was so tired. The plan to watch TV at 12.30 pm turned into a one-hour-sleep. At 1.30, I was waken up by my dad, who had arrived from Sarikei. Then, I swicthed on the computer to continue my translating hobby. I expected that today it will not become just like yesterday.

And still, the translating work was no fun, though.

While I was translating a sermon delivered by Sheikh Abdul Rahman as-Sudais, my dad gave me a bottle of perfume. Well, you can say that I'm anti-alcohol perfume, becuase I'm really anti-alcohol perfume. So I just put the perfume there and do nothing. I said: "I cannot use this kind of perfume. Got alcohol inside."

You also can say I'm anak derhaka. After all, I'm gaining more and more rewards from God, and you getting more and more sins. I'm just defending my policies, and all my policies are based on the Quran and Sunnah (Prophet Muhammad's way).

Back to the story. So, when I'm refusing to use that perfume, you know what happen next. They thought that I'm not a thankful son. So they said anything negative about me (complaining, they were sulking actually, this was one of their way of sulking) in Melanau language. They think I could not understand. what did they say. Indeed, they were underestimated me.

Even if I explained to them, they still not understand. As the result, it disturbing me translating work for the second time.

Well, most parents like that. They think when they becoming parents, they think they are right in all aspects.

And now, I felt I'm left alone. No supports. Lack supports.

:(

Well, at least, I had the support from God and the Messenger of Allah (s.a.w.).

For this entry, before I end this entry (because I need to go to Ustaz Manaf's house for berbuka puasa with some of my friends there, read here), I put the lyric of a song entitled Apa Yang Kau Tahu (What Do You Know), sang by Rabbani.

Bacalah...sebutlah dengan nama
Tuhan yang menciptakan
Segala kejadian di dunia

Bacalah...tulislah dengan pena
Wahyu yang diutuskan
Risalah kebenaran untuk insan

Seluruh kasihnya telah dia curahkan
Tulus suci mengisi ruang hati
Bagai dalam dingin
Rindu berdakapan
Dengan kata syahdu
Kasih mesra bersatu
Apa yang kau tahu

Bacalah...lihatlah dengan mata
Selami sanubari
Putaran panorama hidup ini

Bacalah...tipuan mata hati
Bisikan penuh mimpi
Melamar kelalaian tidak henti

Suruhan larangan telah dia sampaikan
Jangan pilih haluan dimurka
Kelak rebah diri
Duka menangisi
Tanpa belas kasih
Disiksa saban waktu
Apa yang kau tahu

Gua hira menggamit kisah silam
Satu peristiwa nabi bersendiri
Iqra diturunkan muhammad ditabalkan
Tersuratlah sudah kalam dari Tuhan

Sekian kalinya detik waktu berlalu
Apa terus berbakti untuk dia
Membalas kasih
Syukur dengan nikmat

Amal yang bertambah
Hikmahnya kan ketemu

Apa yang kau tahu....

P/S: I purposely bolded in red some of the lines in that lyric.

Please don't think bad of me. If got something unclear, you are welcomed to give your comments.

Identiti

Mencontohi sesuatu itu memang elok, tetapi biarlah kena pada tempatnya. Bukan sahaja perlu memilih yang positif, tetapi perlu juga mengambil kira aspek hak cipta seseorang itu. Lebih elok jika menjadi diri sendiri. Itulah identiti sebenar kita.

Ketika saya menulis entri ini, saya baharu sahaja pulang dari menunaikan solat Isyak dan solat Tarawih berjemaah di surau. Saya sangka, sebaik sahaja saya pulang dan membuka komputer ini, saya dapat menjalankan hobi menterjemah khutbah-khutbah dari Al-Haramain as-Syarifain. Malangnya, mood itu bertukar kepada rasa geram, rasa marah dan rasa sakit hati yang membara.

Saya membuka sebuah blog, di mana stail header blognya seakan-akan menyerupai stail header blog saya. Cuma apa yang membezakannya ialah header saya terdapat link bagi blog ini, dan header blog itu terdapat banyak gambar yang pastinya diedit dan disusun dalam keadaan yang tidak teratur dan tidak cekap. Saya bukan hendak perasan dan bukan hendak mengutuk.

Kali ini, saya memang sakit hati dengan penulis blog itu. Tetapi tidaklah sampai dendam. Cuma rasa sakit hati yang biasa saja. Dahulunya title blognya menyerupai title blog saya. Cuma dia menggunakan perkataan permulaan dan akhiran yang berbeza dengan saya. Dan kali ini, rekaan header blog saya yang diserupainya untuk menghasilkan header bagi blognya.

Syukurlah blognya tidak menyerupai blog saya secara keseluruhannya.

Saya bukanlah marah, tetapi apa yang ingin saya katakan: kadang-kadang sesuatu perkara yang menjadi ikutan kita akan menimbulkan rasa sakit hati terhadap orang yang menjadi ikutan itu. Sebenarnya, apa yang ada pada seseorang sudah merupakan trade mark baginya agar orang lain mudah mengenalinya. Tindakan kita mencontohinya dalam beberapa perkara yang menjadi trade mark dia menyebabkan orang sukar mengenalinya.

Kalau anda ingin mencontohinya dari segi sikapnya, itu tidak mengapa. Tetapi bukan dari segi perkara-perkara tertentu seperti gayanya. Sebab itulah umat Islam dianjurkan menjadikan Rasulullah SAW sebagai contoh terbaik bagi mereka.

Saya bukanlah bercakap kosong. Saya sendiri sebenarnya ada mencontohi beberapa gaya daripada beberapa orang. Tetapi, gaya-gaya yang saya ambil itu saya gabungkan menjadi gaya saya sendiri. Contoh yang paling jelas ialah pada blog saya. Kalau anda perhatikan, layout blog ini saya contohi gayanya daripada blog Faisal Tehrani, cuba warnanya yang saya terbalikkan. Sebelah kiri warna putih, sebelah kanan warna kelabu.

Headernya pula (sebelum saya tukar kepada yang baharu), merupakan ikutan dari header blog Mufti Perlis. Cuma saya letakkan hiasan khat. Tambahan pula, saya tidak begitu pakar dalam men-'crop' gambar saya daripada sebuah gambar asal.

Jadilah diri sendiri. Jangan suka mencontohi gaya orang lain. Contohilah sikap dan akhlaknya. Saya tidak marahkan anda, malah saya maafkan anda.

Maafkan saya sekiranya terkhilaf kata.

Deduction

"The history of Islam is the best testament to how different communities can live together in peace and harmony. Muslims must exemplify the true image of Islam in their interaction with other communities." - Sheikh Dr. Abdul Rahman as-Sudais, Grand Imam of Masjid al-Haram, Makkah.

Funny, Humorous English Literature Class
I have the right to tell the reader what's going on during our English Literature class. However, I decided not to tell about it since I'm fasting, and the issue that I want to tell about that is a little bit concerning about s** issue.

For more information, visit here.

Walking to Masjid Bahagian
My dad was on outstation again. Usually, me and my dad will go the Masjid Bahagian using a motorcycle. But today, I went there alone, by foot. In this fasting month, this thing really testing me, physically and mentally.

Although no rain for today's noon, I still brought umbrella (for energy conservation). But, it still making no difference to me. I'm became more exhausted.

According to Islam, he/she can break fast earlier if he/she really really really exhausted, but he/she need to replace the fast for that day in other day.

Thanks to Lord, I met Kpl. Sudin, the current bilal for Tarawih prayer at Surau Darul Ibadat. He kindly gave me a sit on his motorcycle, going to Masjid Bahagian. At there, I thanked to him before entering the mosque.

Unexpected Meeting and Wrong Deduction
After Friday prayer at Masjid Bahagian, I walked back to my home using the long route, froum the mosque, to the road passing by Wisma Hopoh, then crossing the main road, using the road that passing by the Telekom and St. Joseph Secondary School.

The reason I using the long way is only that I was hoping to meet 'her'. But then, I deduced that the probability for me to meet 'her' is only 10%. That's mean, there was a higher posibility that I will not meet her in front of St. Joe.

Nevertheless, my deduction again went the wrong way.

In the front of St. Joseph School, there was a waiting place for students to wait for their parents to pick them up from school. I was sitting there after a long walk to rest for a while. I never expected that a short-haired-with-specs girl with white school shirt and white skirt was there also, waiting for her parents (I think).

Well, not all my deductions are proven correct. My deductions cannot be compared with Sherlock Holmes' deduction and Shinichi Kudo's deduction. (I'm a big fan of Sherlock Holmes' stories and Detective Conan anime).

Back to the story. So, I was sitting there, doing nothing as the introduction. Just staring here and there, sometimes staring at her. With my friend, Mohd. Razie, we discussed crap there as I staring at her (but not for a long time).

You can call me crazy, or stalker, or whatever you like. After all, I'm getting more and more pahala, and you getting more and more sins.

Kelvin Jong, who was also there, waiting for his parents to pick him up, laughing at me, knowing that I'm staring at 'her'. Arghh, kantoi...

Invitation

So many important events happened in the blessed month of Ramadhan. The revelation of first revelation of al-Quran (on 17 Ramadhan), the first war in Islamic history (Badar War in the month of Ramadhan), etc.

Sleeping for 15 Minutes
Chemistry class was a great class. Unfortunately, due to lack of sleep, I could not help to sleep in the class, since I am sitting at the back. At first, the teacher noticed me that I'm sleeping, but at that time I haven't sleep yet. After second period of Chemistry, I finally slept, but only for 15 minutes. As the result, I didn't know anything about the works teacher gave us as our homeworks until I asked Allistair Adam, Daryl Tian, Adrian Ho and Benedict Yet.

I got two lessons for today:

1. Always make sure you get enough sleep.
2. Do not sleep when teacher is teaching, even though he/she didn't noticed it.

All praise to Lord, I today felt energetic after afternoon sleep at my home.

Fell Sick
One thing for sure, if you cannot stand with your drastic-increase body temperature, you need to have enough rest. And that's what I said to Kelvin Ting, whose body temperature higher than me and the others. At first, he didn't want to go home, because he didn't want to miss several classes and activities. However, because we all worrying about his health, so he decided to go home.

As the monitor, I brought him to PKHEM to ask for permission to go home. However, PKHEM was busy chatting with guests, so we ask the permission from PK KK, Mr. Darry. He recorded the permission in a book and then called Kelvin' mum. Kelvin was sure, his mother was worrying about him when the school called her and mentioned his name. Well, no mother who doesn't worry about her own son.

Well, I hope you get enough rest and take medicine, so that you can come back to school, Kelvin.

New Chapter
Today there was no diagnostic test for us. However, we was told that next Thursday was Biology diagnostic test for chapter 6 (Nutrition). Well, we still have a week to cope with that chapter.

I think today was one of the day where I paid full attention to teacher's class. Praise to Lord for making me slept in Chemistry class, I felt no sleepy in Biology class (should I praise to God for that?). Pn. Hjh. Rosni taught us about Dynamic Ecosystem, concerning about environment.

My determination was tested when 'the girl' with another student passed by Biology lab. Since I was sitting at the left side of the table, I can see anything happen at the outside of the Biology lab.At first, I didn't noticed that it was 'her'. Only when she passed by I noticed that. Kelvin Jong, who also saw 'her', laughed me.

That was a great test to me.

Receiving Invitation
Yesterday, I was told by Alif Azni that I and some other students (e.g Qamarul, Nadzmi, Alif Azni) was invited to having berbuka puasa at Ustaz Manaf's house. Since I have nothing to do on Saturday, so I agreed. Nadzmi will take me to Ustaz's house this Saturday. Thank you.

I need to tell to Pak Cik Rasyid that I cannot go to the surau to call for prayer for Maghrib prayer.

Keputusan Ujian Kedua 2008

Firman Allah SWT: "Mereka (golongan hipokrit - munafik) itulah musuh yang sebenar-benarnya maka berjaga-jagalah engkau terhadap mereka. Semoga Allah membinasa dan menyingkirkan mereka dari rahmatNya. (Pelik sungguh!) Bagaimana mereka dipalingkan (oleh hawa nafsunya dari kebenaran)?" - Surah al-Munafiqun, 63 : Ayat 4

Sakit Perut yang amat Memulas
Disebabkan pagi tadi, saya bangun lewat (iaitu pada 6.30 pagi) setelah tidur kembali usai sahur, maka saya tidak sempat membuang hajat pagi tadi. Akibatnya saya menderita terpaksa menanggung rasa sakit yang begitu perit.

Kesakitan itu berlanjutan hingga ke masa ketiga persekolahan. Atas saranan Amir Hakim, saya pun pergilah ke tandas berbekalkan tisu yang diminta daripada ustazah. Kesakitan itu kemudiannya hilang setelah selesai membuang hajat.

Sebenarnya, saya cuba untuk tidak membuang hajat di tandas sekolah, kerana saya bukannya 'bank tisu' yang sentiasa membawa tisu ke mana sahaja. Kerana itulah, saya jarang membuang hajat ketika berada di luar rumah.

Guru Sejarah yang Baharu
Pn. Rauzan - seperti yang anda tahu - sedang sarat mengandungkan anaknya. Entahlah, mungkin anak dalam kandungannya anak pertama baginya dan suaminya. Semoga cikgu selamat melahirkan anaknya.

Amin.

Jadi, bagi menggantikan tempatnya, seorang guru baru telah datang bagi tujuan tersebut. Kini, beliau mengajar Bahasa Melayu bagi kelas 4D dan Sejarah bagi kelas 4A. Namanya ialah Md. Yahya. Lepasan dari sebuah kolej politeknik di Sabak Bernam Selangor.

Apa yang mengejutkan, beliau berkomunikasi dengan kami dalam Bahasa Inggeris, walaupun dia seorang Melayu.

Mula-mula kami berkenalan dengannya. Kami memperkenalkan diri kami sendiri. Setelah itu, kami bermain dua permainan yang pastinya menimbulkan kekecohan sekaligus mengganggu pelajar-pelajar tingkatan lima yang sedang menduduki peperiksaan percubaan.

Permainan yang pertama, kami dikehendaki melakukan bertentangan dengan apa yang dikatakan oleh Cikgu Yahya. Jika beliau kata berdiri, kami harus duduk, dan begitulah sebaliknya. Antara pelajar yang paling awal terkeluar adalah saya dan Stanley. Pelajar yang paling akhir terkeluar ialah Lau Cheng Wai, setelah bersaing dengan Emmanuel.

Permainan yang kedua Cikgu Yahya namakan Curse of Seven, di mana kami tidak boleh menyebut nombor 7 atau apa-apa yang berkaitan dengan nombor 7. Saya merupakan antara yang paling awal terkeluar. Pemenang bagi permainan ini ialah Roland Teo, setelah bertarung dengan Canaris Lim.

Kemudian, Cikgu Yahya bertanya kami sama ada kami ingin beliau mengajar dalam Bahasa Inggeris atau Bahasa Melayu. Kebanyakan daripada kami - berkemungkinan 100% - bersetuju dan inginkan beliau mengajar kami dalam Bahasa Inggeris. Saya tidak membangkang dan tidak pula bersetuju. Pada saya, dalam apa-apa bahasa pun, Sejarah tetap Sejarah. Saya tiada masalah sekiranya Cikgu Yahya ingin mengajar kami dalam Bahasa Inggeris. Saya, faham, bahasa utama yang digunakan dalam kelas saya ialah bahasa Inggeris.

Namun, timbul satu perkara yang (pada saya) menjadi masalah (mungkin bagi sesetengah pelajar, tetapi tidak bagi saya). Perlu diingatkan bahawa dalam peperiksaan sekolah dan SPM, mata pelajaran Sejarah diuji dalam Bahasa Melayu.

Menjawab permasalahan tersebut, Kelvin Ting menjawab: "We all can translate."

Saya dengan penuh malas dan tidak berdaya, malas untuk berdebat dengan Kelvin Ting, yang pasti menjadi pertengkaran dan pertelingkahan.

Keputusan Ujian Kedua 2008
Akhirnya, hari ini, telah keluar keputusan bagi Ujian Kedua yang dijalankan dua minggu yang lalu. Tetapi, Pn. Chin belum lagi memberi kami slip keputusan prestasi kami hari ini.

Dan ini keputusan bagi saya dan beberapa orang rakan saya yang lain:

Nama	BM	BI	PI	PM	Sej	MT	AM	PA	Phy	Kim	Bio	TSI	EST
Abdul Hakim	72.00	63.00	78.00	-	56.00	92.00	77.00	-	68.00	79.00	63.00	86.00	70.00
Roland Teo	67.00	63.00	-	85.00	75.00	96.00	83.00	100	95.00	93.00	92.00	-	78.00
Kelvin Jong	72.00	71.00	-	73.00	71.00	90.00	78.00	81.00	77.00	82.00	84.00	-	80.00
Kelvin Ting	80.00	71.00	-	70.00	67.00	94.00	78.00	100	84.00	86.00	76.00	-	78.00
Amir Hakim	68.00	71.00	80.00	-	70.00	88.00	78.00	-	89.00	92.00	92.00	-	88.00

Emosional

Bulan Ramadhan memang bulan berkat dan rahmat. Malangnya, tidak semua dapat menghayati makna di sebaliknya. Alangkah eloknya seandainya semua umat Islam mengetahui betapa berkatnya bulan Ramadhan ini.

Khutbah Jumaat Paling Emosi oleh Sheikh Taalib
Setelah beberapa lama menunggu kedatangan pagi yang sunyi ini, akhirnya saya berjaya memuat turun video Khutbah Jumaat yang disampaikan oleh Sheikh Salih Aal Talib, (gambar di sebelah) Imam dan Khatib di Masjid al-Haram, Makkah al-Mukarramah. Khutbah tersebut merupakan antara khutbah paling emosi yang pernah saya tonton.

Walaupun khutbah itu disampaikan dalam Bahasa Arab, saya masih dapat memahaminya kerana ada yang diucapkannya dapat difahami. Saya turut menangis apabila melihat dia sebak ketika menyampaikan khutbah itu.

Sekiranya anda berminat untuk menontonnya, sila klik di sini untuk khutbah dalam bahasa Arab dan di sini untuk terjemahannya dalam bahasa Inggeris.

(Tiada Tajuk)
Dalam kesegaran pagi Selasa 16 Ramadhan, saya menuju ke bilik guru untuk mendapatkan fail kedatangan pelajar. Semangat saya pada pagi itu mulai berubah, apabila bertemu dengan Syukri dan Nadzmi. Mereka berdua memberitahu bahawa hari ini dijalankan ujian Tasawwur Islam.

Anda patut tahu, saya belum bersedia lagi untuk menghadapi ujian tersebut walaupun saya tahu ustaz tetap meneruskan ujian itu dalam kondisinya yang kurang baik itu.

Apabila saya ingin mendapatkan kepastian daripada ustaz, ustaz membalas, "Nya tanyak kitak semalam, hari tok madah sik tahu."

Saya memang tak tahu, ustaz! Semalam saya bertanya tentang perkara lain!!

Jadi, saya balik dalam keadaan dimalukan tanpa sebab yang munasabah. Pada mulanya, saya cuba menahan rasa marah yang kemudiannya bertukar menjadi sedih. Tetapi, perasaan itu tidak dapat dibendung ketika kelas Biologi. Maka saya pun melepaskan apa yang terbuku di dalam hati tanpa mengganggu sesi P&P.

Mujur ada Kelvin Ting dan Amir Hakim yang memujuk. Kemudian datang pula Claudia (selepas waktu sekolah, ketika sedang menghadap PC ini).

Saya pun akhirnya cuba menghadapi ujian tersebut, walaupun saya belum bersedia sepenuhnya.

Kelas Bahasa Inggeris dan ISA
ISA di atas bukan merujuk kepada ISA dalam negara kita. Ia merujuk kepada suatu undang-undang di dalam kelas 4A yang bakal dibentangkan esok, Insya-Allah.

Disebabkan Pn. Jennifer tidak tahan lagi dengan kebisingan yang dilakukan oleh kami, maka dia pun 'meledak'lah di dalam kelas itu - memecahkan keamanan di situ. :D

Maka Adrian pun menghadaplah ke arah sahaya seraya bersabda: "We should put her in ISA. You should do something since you're the Ministry of Internal and Public Affair here."

Oh Adrian, saya tidak pernah terfikir, malah belum memikirkan apa yang ingin saya bentangkan esok. Perlukah saya membentang bahawa seseorang yang mengganggu ketenteraman awam patut dihukum berat, atau diadu kepada Pengetua atau bawa berbincang dengannya?

Untuk keterangan lanjut, layari sini.

Bermain Mercun

Sudah 14 hari umat Islam berpuasa. Tinggal beberapa hari lagi untuk menyambut Hari Raya. Namun, sudah terasa kehangatan raya di sekeliling saya, walaupun mereka sendiri tahu mereka belum kira berjaya menunaikan kewajipan tersebut melawan hawa nafsu mereka. Well, terpulanglah kepada mereka.

Semakin Berkurangan
Dari hari ke hari, bilangan kanak-kanak lelaki bertadarus di Surau Darul Ibadah berkurangan, dan bilangan kanak-kanak perempuan yang bertadarus pula bertambah. Budak-budak lelaki pula sibuk bermain mercun di kawasan hadapan Kelab Polis IPK dan di tempat-tempat tertentu, sedangkan budak-budak perempuan sibuk bertadarus al-Quran di surau bersama dengan yang lain.

Saya bukan nak membuat fatwa sendiri (na'uzubillahi minzalik). Cuma, saya hairan, kenapa tiada seorang pun ulama yang memberi fatwa tentang perbuatan bermain mercun. Sedangkan, kita sendiri tahu, bahaya perbuatan bermain mercun sekiranya dimainkan oleh kanak-kanak. Saya - seperti yang saya tekankan tadi - bukanlah hendak mengeluarkan fatwa, tetapi hanya sekadar memberi pendapat, yang pastinya terdedah kepada kesilapan.

Secara umumnya, sekiranya mercun itu dimainkan oleh oleh yang dewasa, maka saya lebih cenderung kepada pendapat yang mengatakan bermain mercun itu dibolehkan (sekiranya ada). Sebabnya: orang dewasa pada zahirnya lebih berpengalaman, lebih matang, tahu menjaga diri pada kebiasaannya, dan tahu membezakan benar dan salah. Mereka juga pada umumnya tahu had-had atau batasan yang perlu dijauhi dalam melakukan sesuatu perkara. Dalam Islam juga, seseorang itu hanya akan dikira mukallaf setelah dia melepasi umur baligh.

Tetapi, seandainya mercun itu dimain oleh kanak-kanak, saya juga cenderung kepada pendapat yang mengatakan bermain mercun itu dilarang. Sebabnya, kanak-kanak ini pada umumnya belum matang lagi akal mereka, dan mereka masih memerlukan pengawasan ibu bapa atau orang dewasa disebabkan mereka belum begitu matang. Mereka juga pada umumnya bersikap ingin tahu, sehingga sekiranya mereka melakukan sesuatu tanpa batasan, dibimbangi perbuatan yang mereka lakukan akan membawa kepada kemudaratan. Kita tidak tahu apa yang akan terjadi. Apa-apa boleh terjadi. Jadi, lebih elok sekiranya kanak-kanak dilarang bermain mercun.

Walau bagaimanapun, saya lebih cenderung bahawa mercun itu haram. Kerana apa? Kerana kerajaan sendiri telah mengharamkan mercun di negara ini. Kita sebagai warganegara Malaysia, wajib mematuhi perintah pemerintah selagi tidak bertentangan dengan syariah Islam, dan melanggarinya adalah suatu perbuatan dosa yang besar. Firman Allah SWT: "Wahai orang-orang yang beriman, taatlah kamu kepada Allah dan taatlah kepada Rasul dan ulil-amr (orang-orang yang berkuasa) dalam kalangan kamu."

Kesimpulannya, perbuatan mercun itu haram.

Sekali Lagi Tidur di Dalam Kelas
Secara jujurnya, dalam bulan ini, saya selalu mengalami kekurangan tidur yang cukup. Walau bagaimanapun, hanya tiga kali sahaja saya tertidur di dalam kelas ketika guru sedang mengajar, dan sekali sebelum sesi pembelajaran bermula.

Pagi ini sekali lagi saya tertidur di dalam kelas - ketika waktu Kimia. Memandangkan kami tidak melakukan apa-apa ujikaji hari ini, maka saya tidak dapat menahan rasa mengantuk. Tetapi, tidur tersebut tidak lena. Pn. Michelle berhempas pulas mengajar, dan kebanyakan murid-muridnya bercakap dan membuat bising. Walaupun ditegur, mereka tidak serik.

Hai... kesian cikgu.

Bertemu Dengannya ... Sekali Lagi?!
Semasa rehat, saya melihat 'gadis itu' bertugas bersama Adrian di hadapan pagar yang menghubungkan blok Josephian dengan blok La Salle di tingkat pertama. Anda pun tahulah apa yang jadi kalau saya bertemu dengannya, tetapi saya tidak begitu endah, kerana ketika itu, mula terasa titik-titik penat berpuasa, ditambahi dengan suhu badan yang agak panas dan kepala yang begitu pening.

Tetapi, saya sempat mengusik Adrian dengan mengatakan, "Adrian, if you have duty with her again tomorrow, please send my regards to her."

Tak tahulah sama ada Adrian akan melakukan seperti apa yang saya cakapkan.

Meminjam Buku Biologi
Setelah mendengar cerita Pn. Liew minggu lalu, saya terasa ingin meminjam buku Biologi yang diceritakannya. Dan saya berhasil meminjam buku tersebut daripadanya. Buku tersebut tebal - lebih daripada 1000 muka surat. Sudah pasti buku itu dari luar negara. Ya, memang betul.

Asalkan saya faham apa yang saya pelajari. Bukan apa, saya bosan membaca buku-buku teks dan rujukan Malaysia yang tidak begitu merangsang minda pelajar (maksudnya tidak begitu berwarna warni) hanya kerana ingin menjimatkan kos.

Hafazan al-Quran bagi Majlis Tadarus al-Quran

Bagi sesiapa yang belum mengetahui mengenai aktiviti yang paling kerap saya sertai, sya paling aktif dalam Majlis Tadarus al-Quran sejak Darjah Tiga hingga Tingkatan Tiga. Hanya dari Tingkatan 1 saya mula mewakili bahagian Sarikei ke perngkat negeri.

Saya pun tak tahu, adakah pihak pengajur Majlis sengaja mencari fasal dengan para pelajar yang menyertai Majlis Tadarus al-Quran (MTAQ), terutamanya bagi kategori hafazan al-Quran. Ketika saya dalam tingkatan dua, hanya tujuh surah sahaja yang diuji, tetapi pada tahun lepas bertambah lagi satu surah. Dan tahun ini, satu surah lagi ditambah.

Antara surah-surah yang diuji ialah:

1. Surah Yaasin - 83 ayat
2. Surah as-Sajdah - 30 ayat
3. Surah al-Waqi'ah - 96 ayat
4. Surah al-Jumu'ah - 11 ayat
5. Surah al-Mulk - 30 ayat
6. Surah Nuh - 28 ayat
7. Surah al-Insan - 31 ayat
8. Surah as-Saff - 14 ayat (ditambah tahun lalu)
9. Surah al-Dhariyat - 60 ayat (ditambah tahun ini, menurut sumber)

Yang saya mampu ingat hanyalah surah as-Sajdah dan surah al-Insan. Itupun masih tersekat-sekat. Maklumlah sibuk dengan pelajaran. Kurang masa untuk menghafal.

Saya sanggup melaksanakan permintaan orang,
Tetapi,
Tidak semua sanggup melaksanakan permintaan saya.

Saya sanggup memaafkan orang,
Tetapi,
Tidak semua sanggup memaafkan saya.

Saya sanggup membantu mereka,
Tetapi,
Tidak semua sanggup membantu saya.

Saya tidak suka mengkhianati orang,
Tetapi,
Tidak semua tidak suka mengkhianati saya.

'Manas'

Saya sendiri pun tak tahulah, sama ada perkataan manas itu memang sudah wujud dalam bahasa Melayu Sarawak dari dahulu lagi. Tetapi, secara literalnya, manas di dalam dialek Sarawak bermaksud panas baran, marah dan naik darah. Barangkali terbit dari perkataan panas.

Serik atau Tidak...?
Semalam telah berlangsung ujian Bahasa Melayu bagi Ujian Kedua bagi tahun ini. Dan sudah menjadi 'resam' kebanyakan pelajar 4A, ada dalam kalangan mereka meniru. Saya baharu sahaja tahu mengenainya apabila menyedari perubahan sikap Puan Halipah ketika kelas Bahasa Melayu pagi tadi.

Pada mula Puan Halipah 'bersyarah', masih ada dalam kalangan kami yang sibuk bercakap kosong dengan rakan mereka - seperti biasa, orang yang biasa. Faham-fahamlah siapa. Tetapi, apabila Puan Halipah meninggikan volume peti suaranya, seluruh kelas menjadi diam - kali keempat dalam sejarah saya berada di situ.

'Syarahan' beliau dimulakan dengan kaiatan antara agama kami dengan kepercayaan kami terhadap Tuhan. Kemudian baharulah dia memberitahu secara 'berlapis-lapis' bahawa ada dalam kalangan kami yang meniru semasa ujian semalam.

Puan Halipah kelihatan kesal dan sedih dengan sikap mereka. Beliau juga dengan terang bahawa ada di antara mereka yang meniru adalah pengawas, sekaligus melabel mereka sebagai seorang yang tidak amanah.

Kata-kata Puan Halipah sangat pedas, sekalipun sebenarnya ia tidak ditujukan kepada saya. Saya berisitghfar banyak-banyak, menenangkan hati saya apabila melihat sikap Puan Halipah yang sedang dikuasai perasaan amarah.

Puan Halipah sempat memberi amaran kepada mereka agar segera meminta maaf atau beliau tidak akan reda dengan mereka. Bahaya tu. apabila sampai kepada tahap tu, maka celakalah mereka. Menyakitkan hati guru samalah seperti menyakitkan hati ibu bapa.

Jadi, kesimpulannya, kami tidak mempelajari apa-apa dalam masa 35 minit tersebut.

Bosan

Daripada Nabi SAW, sabdanya yang bermaksud: "Apabila berkata kamu dalam sembahyang 'Amin', sedang malaikat di langit mengatakan pula, dan bertetapan dua ucapan itu dalam saat yang sama, nescaya Tuhan akan mengampuni dosa-dosanya yang telah lalu." [Sahih Muslim]

Kebosanan dan Kemengantukan
Pagi-pagi yang segar memang sesuai untuk sesi pembelajaran. Tetapi ini hanya bagi mereka yang mempunyai tidur yang cukup. Terus terang, saya memang terlampau mengantuk disebabkan kesegaran pagi ini, sehingga saya hampir tidur di dalam makmal Biologi. Kesegaran ini juga menjadikan saya hilang tumpuan saya untuk belajar tentang apa yang diajar oleh cikgu. Apa yang masuk hanya perbandingan antara inhalation dan exhalation.

Adakah Saya Terlalu Menunjuk-nunjuk?
Ketika kelas Matematik Tambahan, Kelvin Ting bertanya kepada saya, "Lukhman, do you love your God?"

'Aik? Lain benar soalan ni,' gerutu saya dalam hati.

Sebenarnya, dia ada mengatakan sesuatu sebelum dia bertanya soalan itu, tetapi syaangnya saya tidak mendengar apa yang dikatakannya kerana sibuk dengan latihan Matematik Tambahan.

"Yes. Why?" balas saya.

"If you do, then do not showing off your love."

Saya semakin hairan.

"Don't always tell 'I'm fasting, I'm fasting' in front of us."

Laa, pasal tu rupanya.

Aik, dia tak faham lagi?

Saya dengan begitu malas kerana begitu sibuk dengan latihan Matematik Tambahan menjawab, "To remind myself." Agaknya jawapan itu memang sudah terlalu pelik.

Saya sangka dengan berkata "I'm fasting" maka mereka akan berhenti mengatakan sesuatu yang menguji kesabaran saya. Tetapi, tak sangka Kelvin Ting salah sangka sampai begitu sekali.

Adakah salah saya berkata demikian?

Saya sedar, saya ini hanya menyusahkan dan menyakitkan hati orang lain. Alangkah eloknya seandainya saya bersekolah di sekolah agama sebaik sahaja tiba di sini...?

Apa yang berlalu, tak dapat diubah...

Arghh...
Semakin hari, saya semakin tidak dapat menahan perasaan saya. Kadang-kadang, saya ingin 'gadis itu' mengetahui isi hati saya, tetapi kemudian saya membatalkan niat saya itu. Saya cuba berpegang pada polisi tidak menyusahkan dan memudaratkan orang lain.

Tetapi kadang-kadang, saya berfikir, adakah apa yang saya lakukan ini berbaloi? Tidakkah ia hanya menjadikan saya susah dan buntu?

Kadang-kadang, apabila saya melihat dia, saya memang nak luahkan, tetapi.. yalah, pengalaman dan polisi yang saya pegang bertapak di minda saya.

Apa yang harus saya lakukan sekarang?